Did that sound bitter?
Nah. But when I read those posts, or see people who always go to these huge events, my selfishly, ungrateful, evil character defective-y self can bust out and feel bad for those folks like me, who can't afford, have too many kids, or no vacation left due to sick kids and a hysterectomy. And for a SMALL second, I feel like my recovery isn't as strong as it should be, because I can't seem to be able to put these trips as top priority, ever. I envy the commitment others make, to be sure they make it to these events.
It's been a kick-ass summer on many levels.
I would LOVE to feel the connectedness at those conventions and the power and presence of that big, strong group of incredible recovery. I'm so glad we can be seen (anonymous or not) out in full force, to show that recovery kicks ass.
This October there is a rally in Washington D.C. called 10•04•2015 Unite To Face Addiction. And I want to go SO BAD! But I've used up my vacation time this year and I've missed a lot of work. Plus, money is always an issue for this stuff. Can you hear the sad violins playing?
So I'm starting a Go-Fund Me account so I can go.....
Nah, I'm just fucking with you. Haha!
I'm not going to make it to the rally this year. But it doesn't mean I'm any less passionate about recovery, removing stigma, or anything else. It doesn't mean I don't love the people who are able to go and anonymously-ish share on social media how they represent recovery. I'm GLAD they have these conventions and rallies. And I'm GLAD people can go represent, support and love each other. Because that's what it's all about!
You can bet if I got to these events, I would be posting it all over the place.
Next year will be easier. (Do you say that every year too?) I am so grateful.