This is how I remember sounding like:
Ricki, "So, when did you start using?"
Ricki, "When did you start using?"
Me, "I like oranges."
Ricki, "What is your name?"
Me, "Um...um...um...moths are gross."
This whole time, I have been secretly sweating the fact (in my head) that I made a fool of myself. But the truth is, I think it went great. I am so hard on myself. So, this is a pretty big thing for me to admit that I did a good job. That is some real personal progress folks.
Here is a clip of the show, and all I could find to post:
The Ricki Lake Show - Moms taking their kids' ADHD medication
They do this, "After Ricki" U-stream deal online every night. They emailed me and encouraged me to be a part of it. I noticed it on Twitter that they said, "it is going to start in a half hour." So, I logged on and started commenting like crazy. First of all, I told them "The only drug you can die of withdrawal from is alcohol." Pretty rude the way I said it, and I think I pissed the producer off a little, as she disagreed.
I know alcohol is the most common drug to die of withdrawal from. At least that is what I learned at Hazelden and Metropolitan State University. You may FEEL like you want to die from withdrawal of other drugs, but you usually won't. I am not saying you can't. But it isn't nearly as common as it is with alcohol. That doesn't mean you should keep doing them though. Or withdrawal on your own.
Anyway, I started mad-tweeting on this "After Ricki" deal, which also posted on my Facebook wall. This embarrassed the shit out of me, because I don't want my Facebook world knowing what a true, freaky, dork I can be. Those worlds must remain separate. So I deleted almost all of it. And removed the link to the U-stream. This is a good example of how fucking strange I can really be.
I am proud of the show Ricki Lake did yesterday. As a person in recovery, I would be proud of it even if I wasn't on it. It focused on the solution of addiction. And that is what people need to hear.
Now I can get back to normal. My eye will stop twitching, and can focus on the kids, school and the holidays. Did I mention I hate the holidays?
Oh, I'll get to that.