Wednesday, January 16, 2013

I need an internship or two.

I started my last semester of classes last night.  Well, not exactly my last. I have two semesters after this, of which I'll be interning at a drug and alcohol treatment center.

So this semester, I will be looking for my two internships. I need to complete 880 hours of interning to become a licensed drug and alcohol counselor in the state of Minnesota. Oh, and pass the licensure test at the end of all of this. But I will stick to today and not worry about that.

The first pre-practicum meeting was cool, but made me a little nervous. I usually make quick decisions and never really end up with exactly what I want. I know in my heart of hearts that this is what I'm supposed to be doing. I just really want to find the exact right place.

I want to work with women. I would prefer an inpatient treatment center. And of course, advocacy. I can do both.

I am not leaning towards working with adolescence, only because I live with some. They scare me a little. I might be really good at it, but I'm afraid that I wouldn't gain their respect enough to have them believe me. I understand this isn't about me, but I don't feel mature enough inside to handle it. I will do well with adults.

I could be totally wrong about this. Watch me end up working with teens! But my heart says inpatient woman's treatment center. Obviously, I've been there, and although my counselor was a man and I LOVED him, I also loved the other women in treatment with me. It is like a family, and I want to help be a part of the miracle.

This is usually the part of my life where I get too close to having something good, and I self destruct. I did it with my teaching degree, I did it with the business that I owned, I've had probably close to 20 different jobs. I am a quitter. I even wrote a paper a few semesters ago with that title.

I obviously have a fear of success, or more likely, failure. But this time, I am going to succeed. I'm finally growing up, and I love everything they has to do with recovery. I know that it isn't all rainbows and butterflies. But the dark side is meaningful too. Not only will I be helping someone, but I'm ever reminded of where I started. What better way to view the first step, every day.

I really am so excited.

There are plenty if treatment centers here in Minnesota. But if anyone here reads this and wants to interview me, contact me!  I am so excited to start.

I know the below link is old, but isn't this dude amazing?  I started doing yoga recently (at home of course, no fucking way I'm falling in front of people.)  There is an app for that!  Anyhow, if he can do it, so can I right?  I have some other shallow reasons for this, and I'll get to that soon.

A classmate just reminded me of a story I told her last night. I was doing yoga and was in a "box" pose (on all fours) and my son ran by, pushed me over, and screamed "Cow Tipping!"

Little bleep!!


  1. This is the year for more drastic changes and with that i mean YOU'RE NOT A QUITTER ANYMORE!! How exciting that you're so close to having a great career. Those semesters will fly by. Word of mouth girl, start networking and put yourself out there to find an internship.
    SOO proud of you!

  2. If you want to travel, I work at an awesome program near St. Cloud called Journey Home. It was the first women's treatment program in MN to allow women to have their children with them in treatment. Shoot me an email if you want more info. I'd love to have you come up here and speak to our clients sometime anyway. jenna fuchs at gmail dot com (remove spaces, you know the drill). Good luck to you in this new phase in your life! Even if you've always been a quitter, you can quit that too :) Take care.

  3. Oh my gosh what an inspirational video! Good luck on your search for an internship. I have never commented before but read you blog daily. You are a smart strong woman and you should be super proud of yourself!

  4. Hello,
    I've been following your blog for a while now and am wishing you all the success you deserve. I'm also an alumni of Metro State - the Harvard of the north...Anyway - are you familiar with Wayside House - a treatment center in St. Louis Park for women? You may want to check them out for a possible internship. Beaming you good thoughts and peace.

    1. Thank you Barb! I will call Wayside on Monday. Thanks for the encouragement.

    2. Wayside ROCKS! I went to a rad training they did on Relational Cultural Therapy (my go-to for working with women) and they have such a loving, well-thought out program, from the sounds of it. They also have a program where women can have their children live with them while they are in programming - love that.