Saturday, August 17, 2013

A documentary film crew came to town.

I can get caught up in moments and forget to take pictures. This was one of those times. I could have taken some great shots of this day.

Since I put down the pipe and started living, so may cool fucking things have happened to me. Shit that I couldn't have even dreamed of.  One of those happened this week.

Wednesday, a few film makers named Chris Bell and Greg Young flew all the way from Los Angeles to hear my story.  Like a dream or something. Nothing I ever dreamed about, but what an opportunity to share my experience, strength and hope. 

They are doing a documentary on prescription medication in our country and the obvious fucked-up-ness about the entire system.   It's a film about how these drugs and the doctors prescribing them destroy lives. And how we are such a pill popping culture.  More and more of us know people who have died as a result of prescription drugs. I lost a friend a few years ago from prescribed medication from the VA.  And you have heard me go on and on about what the medication has done to my own husband and family. We all know it's an epidemic. Or at least we all should know.  I was super honored to be a part of it. 

Doing this interview and watching him talk to and about others only gave me more compassion for Bob.  I need to be reminded to have compassion so often.  That, in itself, was the gift of the day.  

Of course, I also slid in a message that recovery SAVES lives and that it's possible for everyone. That there are 24 million folks in recovery in our country and all of that good news. That people don't have to die.  I hope that part (or any part I did) makes it into the movie.  But if it doesn't, you can surely find that message in other places and I'll certainly never stop talking about it.

My addiction to prescription meds was because they were there.  It began a terrible relapse for me.   And we all know how that turned out. But it's also the reason I was able to find a better way to live.

Chris Bell also did a film in 2008 called "Bigger, Stronger, Faster."  I've seen it and it is a GREAT fucking movie.  I think you can watch it on Hulu, Youtube, or maybe even Netflix.  But look for it and watch it.  He is good.  Such a super respectful, very smart and a nice guy.

He interviewed my kids, but I forgot to take pictures of that.  He even showed them some good tackling moves for football.  Great dude.  

One question that Chris asked me, that I WISH I could do over was, why do I think people become addicts?  I answered it as a whole bunch of different reasons. We are born this way, adverse childhood 
and life experiences, to have fun, to fit in, to feel normal, or whatever. But the real answer is that it doesn't matter. So many of us try to figure out what went wrong, or how did this happen to us. So that we can fix THAT part of our lives, and be able to use again. We can drive ourselves crazy trying to figure that out. Our brains are wired different, and that is that. We become addicts because we do.  There are many factors. None matter. The only thing that matters is that we are able to get help, and that it is treated as a public health issue. 

There were some very incredible moments of that day that I cannot share with you. I had the opportunity to sit in on some other interviews they did while filming here, and there are some incredible stories out there.  Look for this film when it hits the streets.  I believe they are calling it "Prescription Thugs." I'll be sure to keep you posted. It's an important story he is going to tell. And I, along with my whole family, were super proud to be asked to help.  Even if we end up on the cutting room floor (now I talk all show bizzy) this movie will be awesome.

Thank you Chris.

No comments:

Post a Comment