My internship is teaching me that I cannot believe how lucky I am to be able to be a part of this wonderful work. There is so much change that can happen. And figuring out how to help people do that is something I feel much gratitude to be a part of. But I can't really talk about it too much. I can just say that I'm enjoying every second.
As for my family, we have found our groove. But I am raising teenage and preteen age kids. And the stuff they are going through, is something I no longer have permission to discuss here.
And let me tell you, I would love NOTHING more than to share some of the struggles we have had. Because raising teenagers is HARD! Honestly, I was dumb enough to believe that when they were little was the hardest part. Holy shit is that wrong.
So young people, or people who are on the fence about parenting listen to me carefully. IT NEVER, EVER GETS EASIER. In fact, it gets harder. Your heart never gets a rest. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids. Can't imange not having them (that's a lie). But those of you who chose not to parent, good for you. This shit is never ending. And although there are those moments where they show their intense love for you, and you can enjoy and relish those moments, the truth is MOST of the moments are pains in the ass.
Or maybe I'm doing it wrong.
But I have them, they have me. I'm glad to have them. It is just exhausting and challenging on days where I don't always feel like being challenged. And shaking them is illegal. So, I just love them and try to be here in the best way I know how.
Bob is doing better with the change if pace. He has come a long way in the last few weeks. Still decreasing his meds and doing great with that. So TAKE THAT, stupid VA.
Today is my birthday. I am laying in my bed at my camper, alone. My family didn't want to come and close it up with me. So I came to chill, do some homework, and get the stuff done to get it through winter. Mainly I'm watching old western shows and slacking.
So I'll write more when I have something to say. As for now, enjoy the day that has the most birthdays of the year. And the fall colors up here are beautiful. Lucky me.
As I sat here watching a horrible story on 48 Hour Mystery alone in my camper, my teenage daughter, her friend, and her friend's parents drive all the way up here and brought me this:
So yeah, this is one of those moments really good moments of parenting. Love these people.